7.13.2009

Overload

The sheer volume of questions in my day has me so overloaded today. I believe my brain has short circuited. I do believe this to be a real and serious problem. I am going to research it on WebMD and see if they have any information.

I said something today that I have hear my Mother say a thousand times : " if one more person call out the name Mama, I am leaving home".... I mean it!!!! All day long , Mama, Mama, Mama. Mama I need help, Mama can I have, Mama can you look at this, Hey Mama do you remember.

I am so blessed that I have two beautiful, wonderful kids who care what I think and want me to know everything that they are thinking. This is a blessing that I know will one day soon end. Soon, they will be smarter and cooler than me, they will not want to tell me anything or ask me anything and I will be lucky if they call me once a week. So even though I feel like my brain is going to explode I am happy.

I am so thankful for this life that I am now living. I am thankful for the time with my children, for the impromptu fishing trips and swimming in the afternoons, for frequent trips to see family, and camping trips. I am thankful for little moments like last night when my son and I stood on the porch and watched the lightening before the storm. Even though he was not crazy about being outside with the lightening, he admitted it was cool to watch. He had never watched a storm come in, or smelled the earthy wet air right before the big drops begin to fall.

All of the precious moments that were wasted on traffic and stress for the last 10 years of my life. I will never get those moments back! I made the choices that I felt were best for my family at the time. Yet I am ever grateful that God has called me to be in the home, where I should have been all along.