All these questions and more were the topics of most of my conversations yesterday. I was summoned to " the office" to meet with the new VP and the even newer Director of my department to discuss "my role". Now I know that I am a hard worker and that I am being productive, however, I have been in management long enough to know that, those qualities are not always enough to keep you employed.
So yesterday morning I got up at 4:30 am, showered, dressed in work clothes (UGH), and heels (double UGH), make up (don't even get me started) and headed off to the office. I have been back for lunch a couple of times since I left a year ago, but this was my only "full" day back.
The good news is right now, what I am doing is enough to keep me employed. I thank GOD every day for where he is allowing me to be right now. I have the best of both worlds, I am home with my kids, but still employed and able to make the money we need to keep us comfortable.
Honestly I don't miss it, I miss the people I have worked with for the last 11 years. I miss the interchange of ideas, the challenge that it gives my brain to reason and understand new concepts, to create new solutions. I do thrive on that.
But one thing I realized yesterday was that I still do that in homeschooling. Although it is a different and less complex process. I have to find the best way to reach my children. How can I teach my daughter her phonics and make it stick, what works best for my son reading aloud or silently, what do I say to get him to understand the Geometry formulas. All those things still challenge my brain, just in a different way.
As for all the above questions, I looked at everyone and said, I miss you! I am NOT coming back full time, I couldn't do that to my kids. I love being at home! I wouldn't trade it for anything. But I will put it aside from time to time and come down and visit you.
So much to do, it is the weekend and everyone is home today because the weather is to bad for them to leave for church. Going to Griffin next weekend for a visit and having a yard sale, so the rest of the attic has to be cleaned before we leave to get rid of all the junk!
Have a wonderful weekend!
