12.29.2009

Reflections

A new year is about to dawn in our lives, in just a couple of days 2010 will be here. Now I have never been a resolutions person. I honestly can't recall one year where I have truly made a new years resolution. Do you know why???? Because for me every day should a new resolution. On the off chance of sounding like a 60's hit song knock off..... Yesterday is gone......... 2009 is gone, well pretty much.

Was 2009 a good year for you? Some of us think of it as a tough year, the economy, work, stress, school, life all those things build up and we look around sometimes and just want to scream.

2009 was a different year for me. I went into it doing something I have never done before, being a stay at home, homeschooling Mom. It has been an adventure, we have tried two different methods of homeschooling this year, taken field trips, made family trips, and enjoyed a much more family time than ever before. However, there have also been screaming fits, crying, frustration, and aggravation. I think we have finally settled into a routine, but it is ever changing and evolving, but I think that is okay, I think that is the way it is suppose to be. I feel better about what my kids are learning, how they are learning and where they are learning. I love getting to see how their minds work and watch something click in their brain. You know that little light in their eyes when you watched them learn something new when they are little? With homeschooling you can see that every day no matter how old they get. I am ever thankful for that, especially with Joseph who will be 12 this year, is already going through puberty and will be gone in the blink of an eye.

I believe that God gives us free will to make decisions, that he has a plan for your life and in that plan he places situations and people in your path, how you react to these elements though is your choice. God can't make your choices for you, if he could we would all belong to him and follow all of his commandments.

Today as I was washing dishes I was thinking of my life, and wondering if I had made the decisions that God would have had me make. I have to think I did okay, I am sure I didn't do it all the right way, the Lord himself knows of all the times I have fallen, and sinned, and had to pick myself back up and keep going. But I have to believe that right now I am where he wants me to be. I feel at peace with it. I won't tell you it is easy and some days are harder than others, but I love my husband, my kids, my home and my life.

2009 was a good year despite all the minor annoyances, everyone I love is still on this earth for me to see, talk to and love, and sometimes that is the thing you have to be most thankful for. We are all still here!

Happy New Year, I hope 2010 finds you all well!

Jennifer